There’s really no way to say “I’m skinny” without sounding completely condescending. But I’m going to say it, partly because offending people gets me off and partly because it’s true. This morning I weighed in at a whopping 101.4 pounds, which is slightly lower than the ideal body weight for my height. I usually fluctuate anywhere from 100-108 pounds, depending on if I eat a burger that day or not. Oh yeah, this is my weight without dieting or exercising.
Do you hate me yet? Good, because it gets worse.
I’m what you would call “naturally skinny.” Before you start coming after me with your pitchforks, you might want to grab a couple more because I’m not the only one. There’s literally thousands of us running around. That girl wearing a bralette as a top? She’s one of us. That girl who complains when a store doesn’t carry 00? One of us. Pretty much all the girls you love to hate are part of this little club. But I’ll let you in on our secret, if you promise not to judge. Most of us are not happy in our bodies.
Liar. You’re totally judging right now. Hear me out before you go for my throat.
The mere mention of my weight is enough to get an eye roll from my friends, along with an exasperated sigh expressing how much they wished they were my size, and it only gets bigger when I say I dislike my body. I’m small, but not, like, Kendall Jenner skinny, and for being 100 pounds, I would really, really appreciate it so much more if ten of those pounds were in my boobs instead of my midsection.
If I’m not allowed to be unhappy with the way I look, am I even a girl? No. Skinny girls can hate the fact that they’re skinny just as much as bigger girls can hate the fact that they’re big. Everyone wants to be anyone but themselves, even the skinny bitches. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve looked at a girl who actually fills out the top of her bathing suit and wished I could do the same thing.
Anytime I bring this up to friends, I automatically get shut down. I’m not allowed to talk about the things I want to change, like getting a more toned stomach, bigger butt, and smaller arms, because of my weight. Yeah sure, I weigh less than a majority of people, but that doesn’t mean I’m healthy. I eat whatever I want, and cheese is basically a staple of diet, and while that may not show on the scale, it definitely shows on my body.
Just like some people are pretty and some people are ugly, some people are skinny and others aren’t. That sounds mean, but it’s true. It’s just genetics. Luckily, being ugly or pretty and skinny or fat are all things you can change. If you think that’s shallow and you accept yourself just the way you are, then fine, don’t change a thing, but there are people out there who don’t. Call it what you want, but I would rather be the best version of myself than just myself. Being skinny is who I am, but if I want to be fit and look good naked, I can work to become that, too.
The thing is, it’s not about the weight on the scale. It’s about what you see when you look in the mirror. And that’s true whether you’re 100 pounds or 180 pounds. No matter who you are, and even if you are already thinking of the perfect response to this column to put in the comments, you can relate to wishing things were different when you looked in the mirror. All I’m trying to say is that skinny girls feel the same way. You might not be able to understand, but at least you can relate.
It’s also worth noting that guys don’t like skinny girls. They like two things: boobs and butts, those two things just happen to be what skinny girls lack. There’s nothing sexy about your boyfriend asking you to get up off his lap because it’s hurting him. The only people who love the body of a skinny girl are other girls. Ask any guy if he would rather be with Gigi Hadid or Sofia Vergara, and I bet 99% of them would pick Sofia.
Maybe this is too far, and maybe I should just shut up and sit my 100 pound ass down when all my friends are talking about the things they wish they could change about their bodies. But if I could do better, and look better, why shouldn’t I want that? Skinny girls are girls too, and we will always compare ourselves to something better. That’s not a skinny girl problem, that’s an every girl problem. So either change it, or let us join in on the fun..